Bars We Can't See

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As I found myself on this wicked and unforgiving “your life is now public”, world I entered into when I stepped in front of a live streamer, and then became one. Every moment recorded, every mistake, every success, every emotion, every breakdown. It is very raw, and often times must see tv.

America watched as I went from a quiet conservative observer to full fledged boots on the ground. What got me there? What pushed me to take that next step?

It has not been an easy road, there are things my kids have wanted to do and we could not because our decision was influenced by the effect the haters have on our lives, and in turn my families life. We exist in this sort of middle of the road gray area. People know us, we have a great reputation, but we aren’t big enough to yet make enough money to be able to support our family while I chase my dream of putting pen to paper.

Often times I wonder if I am actually cursing my family just to stay in a fight that is unwinnable. Should I give up on these dreams of mine and fall back into line with everyone else? I do not fit in line and I never have. I have spent my life fighting those who would force me into it. I have always been someone willing to take a chance.

Many of us get right up to the cliff of choices but never jump,  I would be the guy who passes you and jumps as you creep slowly forward with an overabundance of caution. Creeping, because you trust in man, which is like building your house on sand. I take only one thing with me when I jump, and it isn’t a parachute, it’s God. If I say I trust God, but I jump with a parachute, well, I am not really trusting fully in God am I? No, I put my trust in God, and He has never let me down. Every success I have is from Him and every failure put me where He knew I needed to be. He slows me down, yet He speeds me up. I get it wrong most of the time, but when I truly trust in God, I win. Always consider, that what may seem like a loss in our worldly eyes today, may not be when you back up and see the whole picture. It can all make sense, even if it hurts right now.

God’s understanding is not our understanding. Nor is His timing our timing. Remain faithful even when you don’t understand, even when it seems to hurt. God works all things for good.

So I will continue to put one foot in front of the other, even as it seems unavoidable that we are going to lose everything. I am willing to do that. That an easy choice to make for myself, however the weight in that choice rests on my shoulders and it is so very heavy. When you consider I am also making that choice for my wife and children.

I am willing to lose my things, my home, my family, even my life, but am I willing to make that choice for them? And isn’t this one of the biggest problems in America, that no one is willing to lose anything. So unwilling they will stand by a watch while others are torn apart and laid to waste, all the while they wave Old Glory and watch America crumble around them. That flag in your hand is not enough. So yes, I am willing to lose everything, but why do I have to?

We continue to look at life through worldly eyes, but when you think spiritually you realize this is not our home, we are but a vapor. We are here but for the blink of an eye before we really go home to be with God. What I lose here I only lose for a moment, what I gain there, I gain for eternity.

Give Me Liberty or Give Me Death is a real thing. If you are not willing to lose your things, don’t tell me you would die for your country. To clarify, no one is asking you to do that, we just want to wake up America to the tyranny in our government.

I don’t like to mention the price my family has paid for our involvement in this fight. The cost has been great and we are currently facing a tsunami of financial problems that I currently see no way out of. At this point all we can do is hold each other close as a family and pray that God continues to protect and provide for us. The tsunami is going to hit, and it is going to hurt, but with God we will pull through, and He will put us where He wants us, like He always has. I have no idea where that will be, and that can be scary but I rely on the fact that we will end up where He wants us to end up.

People tell me to reach out to our supporters for help, but I have never been the one to ask people for help, no matter what that help looked like or how badly I may need it, so I won’t do it now. However,  I will ask that you pray for my family. We are blessed in so many ways, and we have a strong foundation. We may go under, and it looks like we will, but we will resurface together I have no doubt about that. If you don’t see me or Faith right away, it’s because we are pushing them up from under the surface while we are attacked and struggling to breathe ourselves.

I have no idea where this road is going to take us, and to be honest I do not concern myself with it. I know as long as I stay close to God He will protect us and He is in control of the destination, I need only to stay close and enjoy the ride. Jesus is not my co-pilot as the bumper sticker reads. He is the pilot and I am the co-pilot. The sooner we all realize that and quit trying to take the wheel, the sooner we will find the strength to rise up as one voice empowered with our numbers, because our numbers are empowered by God.

We spend our lives living life behind bars we can’t see.

We spend our time fighting battles that mean nothing to you or me.

We find ourselves shackled but we hold the key.

Even if they make it difficult to see.